x feels like im starting it all over again
surrounded by sad people. kinda got influenced too :(
I whisper, remember what she did
Don't miss her
Set me free, she won't allow it
Angry and gone, and the list goes on and on
Now I'm letting up, I should be the one who's letting go
She's lonely, she's scared, I'm relationship impaired
If it's love, I will differ, I'm being lost being with her
I can't move on, I can't take it
She, she says we won't make it now
I can't move on, I can't take it
She, she says we won't make it now
Believing, the things i did were wrong
I'm leaving
It fades away, forget about it
She's binding, can't do a thing alone
Rewinding
Times before, can't live without it
I don't know
But you did you did
Please don't go
Now my feelings for you they're now lost
'cause we're through anymore
I'll write you, I'll call you
Now
watched lotr rotk! its really good. though i think i prefer the first one. maybe its cos i wasnt sitting with tings but behind her cos we didnt want to end up as one of those craning their necks at the first row. only spoke 2/3 times thru'out. either that or its that..i became less emotional?? which is really weird. i used to cry at practically every movie thats a tad saddening. oh and that embarassing incident. god. shall not blog about my stupor. too lazy to, anyway. glad to be back in school, in a way. finally could give tings a huge hug. missed that girl loads. had fun with you, babe. laughing like the old times :D we spend the entire morning till recess looking at gillian chung's pictures. my god that girl's so perfect in every way. supreme inferiority seeps in !
im so sick of being numb. im sick of feigning happiness when it feels so hollow inside.
oh what to sayy.
well to say it simply.
missed you.
its been ages since ive seen you.
i miss being able to do my spastic daily routines that my friends laugh about.
for some strange reason, i miss my thumping heart every morning when i climb the stairs.
i miss bumping into you anywhere in the compound
i miss your funny grin
i miss pretending not seeing you
i miss checking you out
i miss the lil notes in the letters
i miss sneaking peeks
i miss..so many things
and its strange because i dont even like you anymore.
and it seems to me that youre drifting further and further away.
out of reach now.
da's right.
C R A P P.
No ones to blame, here's where it all ends,
And I feel the pain, 'cause I'm without her,
I feel the pain..
I see the sight, with a different light,
Words cannot describe the way I'm feeling,
'Cause I've been searching in my head,
For the words I thought she'd said,
For too long..
I feel her.. Slipping through my fingers,
Now she's gone, I'm sleeping with the light on,
And sharks went through my veins now, that she's gone,
I'm sleeping with the light on.
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haha. lame cute-ass poor thing freda and my lame conversation!
wend' along she came with her picture says:
haha okay youre a really patient shopper (:
freda ` // and i think about you all the time . says:
me? haha why?
wend' along she came with her picture says:
dont you know?
wend' along she came with her picture says:
youre really patient
wend' along she came with her picture says:
haha
-cut-
freda ` // and i think about you all the time . says:
huh..
freda ` // and i think about you all the time . says:
shit man!
wend' along she came with her picture says:
??
-cut-
wend' along she came with her picture says:
why you shit man
wend' along she came with her picture says:
??
wend' along she came with her picture says:
haha cos you patiently go w me and try so many crap dresses
wend' along she came with her picture says:
and at first stand outsdie some more!
wend' along she came with her picture says:
then happily bring dresses for me
wend' along she came with her picture says:
and the tube also!
wend' along she came with her picture says:
and now days later you still say you wanna go check w me if got size2!!
wend' along she came with her picture says:
haha
wend' along she came with her picture says:
whoevr does that man
wend' along she came with her picture says:
-lks at da like shes an endangered exhibit
wend' along she came with her picture says:
haha
wend' along she came with her picture says:
-hugs-
wend' along she came with her picture says:
suddnly felt like telling you i love youuu!!
wend' along she came with her picture says:
-chants- I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU
wend' along she came with her picture says:
oh i think im gonna get going!
wend' along she came with her picture says:
are you gonna reply me or what!?
wend' along she came with her picture says:
-demands a reply right now
freda ` // and i think about you all the time . says:
awwwwwww (((:
freda ` // and i think about you all the time . says:
I LOVE U TOO!!!!!
freda ` // and i think about you all the time . says:
((((:
cut off the ending and practically the whole coversation. doesnt make sense but as long as we know ;) all began with me whining about my zara skirt la. as usual. wen zi the mosquito. which is a retarded nickname sabrinanapok got me and only she still thinks its funny years later. can you believe she still calls me that!!? ok out of point.
hahaha sq very funny also!! aiyer. i love everyone leh. everyone but you. i only..like you. as in not like. does anyone get what i mean? not like like! oh forget it. yawns. shall really go sleep alrdy. tata, world. or rather. to anyone who bothers at all.
x here's where it all ends
